I’ve just read a friend’s post, “do I go on blogging?”, she asks herself. I think you should go on, Kendall. There is a Brazilian singer, Roberto Carlos, who sang, back in the 70’s: “I want to have 1 million friends – and to be able to sing louder.” That popular song, (if I think about it now) seems so natural, and so plausible for any school girl with access to Internet! And there was no Internet at those times…
But this time there is a kind of illusion in the idea of having friends through Internet, because the geographical distance between people won’t dissapear just like that. There might be a kind of therapeutical relieve in communicating this way, but the physical contact lacks, and badly… That idealistic, romantic idea, seems to lack the concrete ground where the normal friendship normally appears. I guess it has to do with the modern times – we haven’t got the time anymore, to cultivate friendship. Anyway, Kendall, I’m glad to have known you and talk to you ( in this real world, not in the Internet wires!). And keep on telling me your news, ok?
Well, tomorrow I’ll be traveling. I’ll take the plane to New Jersey, where I’ll be staying from now on (I don’t know for how long). The place is called Riverside – it’s a small town but it’s rather close to Philadelphia.
TALKING ABOUT MY IMPRESSIONS IN THIS PLACE:
The last weeks here were very nice, I had some nice feelings of belonging to the Nature, of being part of the whole, at certain moments, when I felt more inspired, I presume. Sometimes I wasn’t in the mood to open myself to a new sensation, a new perception of the world. And I simply turned away from that sensation. Maybe it was fear of loosing a certain certainty about my world. The world in which I find security. That feeling, which I tend to call “holistic perception”, is something misterious indeed. Because for what I understand, it does not come from within our complexes and memories, instincts, and so on… I think it comes from outside… But from where, if everything we feel and think is already stored in our brain from past experiences? If it is a new experience, it must come from outside…
Well, Krishnamurti would say that this misterious energy comes from nowhere. Or from the Universe… like a breeze that touches us for a moment and leaves no trace. But when I was more open, I could feel a wave of calmness inside. Like I was surrounded by the Nature and the Nature protected me. That there was nothing to worry whatsoever. And this being alive in the present moment, that nothing else matters – no future, no past. But again, when it comes, my mind starts to name it, wants to understand it and somehow the magic of it vanishes and slowly my normal mode returns.
